Austraila

HEY GUYS! wow i havent been on here in a LONG time....well....actually...to tell you the truth i have been on here a lot. but i dont write. i dont know why but i dont. so i decided that i will FINALLY write again today :) hmm i dont quite think i was in shock there hailey. i think that i was in a place. that had NO service. i kinda thought that i was going to die.it was insane. and on the way back home. there was a million gazillion bugs!! it was totally crazy yo! hahaha wow im dumb. loleo. hmmmmm i really dont know what to put on here. and really i should have ALOT to put on here cause i havent written in EVERR! wow uhmm HAILEY! im watching us on tv! the little robot dude. and the gold guy! dont remember their names! but still! were on tv loleo so umm i dont have anything else to sayy soo byes guys! :)

The Beauties of Cleaning

Okay..
so waking up and having a knoose tied around your neck is about the worst thing there is to wake up to..right?
Well..for me..
my knoose was vaccuming.
And i absolutley DREAD it.
I hate it..
i hate the sound.
And..to be perfectly honest..
i hate to clean.
Some call it lazy..i call it NORMAL.
And well..i woke up to the most beatiful noise that i have ever heard in my life.
What is it you ask?
The sound of cleaning of course!
And to be specific..the sound of the vaccum roaring in my ear.
I know..how much more spa like could this experience get? :)
Okay..so the sound of the vaccum isnt the most relaxing thing you could hear..
but atleast its not the sound of YOU vaccuming.
Oh..look..what do you know?
Its my grandmother saying.."Hailey! Im gunna need you to vaccum the back rooms"
Yay!
How much fun!
I get to vaccum!
So i guess you do always get what you wish for..heh..funny how that all turns out.
Just my luck.
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I just found out that we have the exterminator coming to our house today..
how great is that?
Having your house smell like Bug-be-Gone.
Just the way i wanted our hhome to smell.
On the bright side..
wait..
there is no bright side to this.
Nevermind then.
So..
I guess i am off to vaccum.
Ahhh man.

Hailey Over and OUT :)

"I resort to being speechless, cuz our love wont survive.."

You know..
sometimes..being speechless is good for a change.
I realized that you dont always have to have something to say.
Some things are better left unsaid..unspoken.
And in those times..it can be hard..but atleast later on in life..you wont regret it.
You wont wanna take all of those words back..because they were never said.
And..right now..is one of those times for me.
One of those times where i dont even feel like talking.
Where i dont feel like lauging or even smiling.
If i smile now..it would be a lie.
It would be a lie to all of those who see it..and unto myself.
Because i feel different.
I feel differently then i portray myself to the world.
I feel as if there are two people inside of me..and one of them is trying so hard to come out.
And the truth is..i dont know which one to be.
The mirror cannot tell you who you are inside.
It can tell you your full of lies..
its amazing what you can hide..
just by putting on a smile.


Hailey :)

Summer Bites

Common Sense.
Common sense is going in a country like area without wearing colone, perfume,smelly hairspray etc.
Why?
because bugs like it.
The smell lures them closer and closer to you.
It doesnt take a genius to figure that out.
Duh.
So how come i go to the country and i get bitten..ALL OVER.
I didnt wear anything scented..not even deoderant..because i am smart like that.
I am now suffering.
UGH..i hate bug bites.
And get this..it only took me 3 days to find the little turd that did this to me.
It was a sea tick.
Yeah..a little itty bitty sea tick.
I couldnt believe it.
I my friends..was mad.
And i am not just exaggerating..i literally have like 60 bug bites all over me.
I must be pretty good to those little critters.
So here i sit..
waiting for DARCEY to text me back..in the meanwhile..scratching my bug bites.
I think she might be in shock..
wondering why?
I guess she is freaking out because of the insane thing i just told her..that she better not tell anyone else.
This has to be kept secret.
This has to be kept on the DL. (Down Low)
This..is the scary truth..that i had been thinking about.
Really really thinking about.
And the more i thought about it...
the more i realized that i had changed my mind.
I had changed my mind about something..something that will never ever happen in real life..
but this could only happen in my dreams.
It couldve happened..
but it didnt..
so it haunts me.
And everytime someone else is on the brain..
this person always comes back to mind.
Always.
Ans he just sits there..
he sits there like a shopping bag sits in a store until that one person buys something..
then that bag gets picked up..and..and..
BOOM!
That person walks out of the store feeling complete..like a weight has been lifted off of her shoulders..like she can move on with her life.
Good Simile..eh?
So..
as you can see..
i need help.
This dream or desire can never happen.



(Movie Trailer Voice)


One Girl.



One Boy.




Two different Worlds.




Can these two worlds come together? Or will they collide and will one girl have to live with her regrets...


FOREVER.






(he heeeemmm)



Okay..

i know..


i am out of my mind..

but maybe..im not.


maybe.. i can pull this off.


Since when do i give up?


Hailey :D

Thriller

Wow.
Michael Jackson is dead.
I cant believe it..
i loved his songs.
Here why..
A. because they rocked
B. because its michael jackson duh!
C. Wicked dance moves
I just made a joke and i didnt even know it..
get it?
ABC.
one of his songs.
Heh.
I LOVE IT!
i sing that song all the time..and i dont even know how it gets in my head.

Michael Jackson is gone..
now thats a thriller.


(get it? Thriller? hahaha)


Hailey :D

Life's Wheel

My life is like a wheel
Always spinning
I never know if im loosing and i never know if i am winning
My life goes round from day to day
Sometime days happy others sad
Once in a while a friend comes along
and it doesnt seem so bad.
My life has many spokes
i never know which girl i am
the one who seems lost or the one who knows just who i am.
My life has a center..which keeps me all in place.
Hes my Father in Heaven..and Hes also my Amazing Grace.

Hailey :)

Silence is Beautiful

When i sit in a silent room..
certain things come to mind.
I find myself doing this kind of thing..well..a lot.
I find my mind wondering to distant places.
Soaring to new heights.
Defying gravity.
And its so new to me..
i like the silence.
And sometimes..
nothing needs to be said.
Nothing needs to come out of your mouth.
Sometimes..silence is golden.
And when i am sitting at home by myself..
i start to think about my life.
I start to analyze it and grasp different concepts i didnt get throughout the day.
Usually..my mind seems like its in a haze.
I tend to get off track..and not pay attention.
I get restless and shaky.
I get eager.
But when i close my eyes..and hear the quite, still, serene side of life..
my brains first reaction is to think of all the things that went on.
I think about regrets..wrong doings...things that i hate..things i loved..
when i should be loving life..and not just bits and pieces of it..but all of it.
Back to the things that i think about.
Today..
i thought about who i was.
Who i am as a person.
Then..i thought about my character.
Who you are when noone else is around.
Who am i?
Who am i..really.
To me..there are certain layers.
Like an onion..
or the earth.
We all have different layers or different sides to all of us.
We have the person that we are at school or around different people.
The person we are with our family.
The person we are with a guy.
and so on.
But when i am by myself..
i feel totally different.
I feel like i can do anything..
i feel like the girl who could volunteer to go first at a kareoke restraunt.
I feel...light.
Light..as in not having anything to worry about anything..burden free..care free..
and i like that feeling.
When i walk out the door..
its like their is a certain barrier..stopping me from saying and doing certain things that i would really enjoy doing.
And you know how most people say that they dont care how other people think?
In my opinion..everyone has that little voice inside of them telling them that they might do something embarrassing or make themselves look idiotic.
And i hate that.
I hate that feeling..because along with that feeling..it brings regret.
Regret is never something you have done..its something you hadnt done and wish you had..or its something you had done and wished you hadnt.
And in life..i dont ever want to feel like that.
I dont ever wanna keep myself hidden.
I dont ever wanna regret.
I dont want to look back at my life and feel that what i did was wrong.
I just want to be free to be myself..
and know that the old me..is gone with the wind..

Hailey :)

JONAS BROTHERS CD!

OMG!
I GOT IT TOO!
IT IS SOO FREAKIN AMAZING!
ONE OF THEIR BEST CDS..
WOW.

JONAS BROTHERS>>THEY STILL ROCK>>NO MATTER WHAT DARCEY SAYS.
JONAS BROTHERS ARE HARDCORE.


LOVE IT!

BUY THE ALBLUM!

LINES,VINES,AND TRYING TIMES!


Hailey :D

NEW CD

ok SUMMER HERE!
and i have major news!
I JUST GOT THE NEW JONAS BROTHERS CD!
"LINES, VINES AND TRYING TIMES!"
IT IS SO AMAZING!
here are the songs...
1.WORLD WAR III (3)
2.PARANOID
3.FLY WITH ME
4.POISON IVY
5.HEY BABY
6.BEFORE THE STORM (FT. MILEY CYRUS)
7.WHAT DID I DO TO YOUR HEART
8.MUCH BETTER
9.BLACK KEYS
10.DON'T CHARGE ME FOR THE CRIME (FT. COMMON)
11.TURN RIGHT
12.DON'T SPEAK
13.KEEP IT REAL

so i ABSOLUTELY love every single song on this cd!
right now i am listening to FLY WITH ME!
black keys is like AMAZING!
as is don't charge me for the crime.
as is turn right
as is before the storm
as is much better
as is paranoid
as is ALL OF THEM!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AMAZING!
ok now i am listening to turn right... =]
"pick up all your tears. throw them in the backseat. leave without a second glance"
that is how the song turn right starts.
it is amazing.
i just love this cd so much.
"Turn right into my arms. Turn right, you won't be alone. You might fall off this track sometimes... hope to see you on the finish line."
that is the chorus of turn right.
ok im just gonna post a link to this song.
cuz i love it so much.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tj_O5VLiIO4
give it a listen.
hope to see you at the finish line.
=D

THE FREAKING BEST SONG EVER!

ok it may not be the best song ever....
BUT!!!!!!!
its AMAZING!
give it a listen...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qv3PJ1YSHFs&playnext=1&playnext_from=QL!
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
by the way..
it is summer that requested this amazing song!
LOVE YA'LL

Life isn't like Indiana Jones

Okay.
SO its summer.
I mean..you get to be relaxed and not worry about school work being turned in late or waking up early.
But as for me..
i have to worry about other things.
Not literally worry..but..well..you know..be really really busy.
I thought id get to have one second to atleast BREATHE.
But..i was wrong.
I have been on the move ever since school let out.
I suppose its good for me.
But i dont get to write you guys as often which is a total bummer.
I dont even get to text darce.
Her cell phone is messed up..well..technically..
the texting is messed up.
I guess shes having TEXTical difficulties! (oh come on guys..you know that was funny)
SO..
yeah..im totally devistated.
Darce is always there when i want to talk about unuseful and irrelevant things.
Now i have to keep the spotenaity to myself.
ANd..as you all may know..
that is a pretty hard thing to do.
Especially for me and darce.
El NEW TOPICA!
You know how in the paragraph above how i was talking and carrying on about how busy my life seems to be right now?
Well..
the other day..i had absolutely NOTHING to do!
It was horrible!
I wrote a little bit more to my book..then journaled a little..and wrote some new poems..
but nothing exciting happened.
I mean..where is the life in life?
Dont get what im saying?
Okay..just hear me out.
Life is supposed to be a journey.
And..to be truthful..it is.
But i guess what i am saying is that..i just thought there was more.
Get this.
Every day..i am always searching for something great..something spectacular..something awww inspiring to happen.
I find myself always wanting to walk around the corner and have something that takes my breath away be right there at that moment.
I am always searching for that something.
The search never ceases.
And i always find myself in an awkward spot..you know..kind of..let down because that amazing thing didnt happen.
Its a horrible feeling.
And i know its coming..but it still gets me everytime.
The other day when i was bored..i wished that i were in a place that was bright and colorful..an undull world where there was in adventure in every corner.
Kind of like Indiana Jones.
You know..how there is always a twist or a new obstacle.
He always has to be on his toes because of all of the things that are out to get him.
Its way over the edge..
its cliff hanging..
its adventurous and dangerous..all at the same time.
Im pretty sure that i would take an adventure like that over watching a tv special about chickens.
Yes..you heard it from me first..i watched a tv special on chickens..on PBS.
Ugh..the agony.
OkAy..well first..i saw this guy that was acting like a chicken..then i saw a guy that detested chickens..a lot..so much..that he took his complaints to the police..talk about rage.
Then a old women was on the show..talking about her pet rooster...fluffy.
At that point..i was pretty much at the point where i was going..are you kidding me?
But sadly..the woman wasnt joking.
She took fluffy VERY seriously.
A little..too seriously.
She even let this chicken watch television.
She said he liked classical music..and she said the chicken told her that.
The chicken went to the grocery store with her too.
Im thinkin PBS needs some new shows...for the love of pete..
Anyway..
like i was saying..
i rather be Indiana Jones.
Id pick that any day rather than watching this chicken show.
But the real point is..
that if you want excitement to take place..
you gotta make it happen.
Things arent ever just gunna happen on their own..
if you want it..you have to make it happen.
And that goes for anything.
Nothing in life will ever just float to you on a fluffy little cloud.
You have to go out there and get what you want.
And me?
Well..
i am tired of waiting.
Waiting (n.)- a certain period of time. a pause or interval.
Yup.
Theres the definition.
Thats me.
Thats what i have been doing.
That is exactly what i dont want to do anymore.
If i want it..i am getting it.
Noone is stoping me..noone is ever standing in my way..noone will ever make me wait again.
Noone will ever make me wait..period.
Because life..life shouldnt be on pause..life cant be..
and life wont go on hold.
When you stop..life still goes on.
Life doesnt wait for you to catch up..
life isnt afraid to leave.
The real question is..
are you ready to catch up.
You cant just sit there and wish your life were different ..
you have to go out there and change it yourself..
otherwise..youll miss your chance.
And i dont wanna miss any chance in life that i get.
When i think if myself..
i think of myself as..as..a girl who likes to be girly.
A Church going, homework slacking,people loving,friendly,happy go lucky, shopaholic..who loves music and coffee and chocolate and her friends and family.
If i could have anything in the world..
id want a camera with endless black and white film..a bunch of canvases with endless amounts of colors..a record player with a bunch of old records..a pianio to write my very own music..and a plane ticket.
I love life.
I love to be out there..you know..in the middle of it all.
I love bright colors and i like my music LOUD.
I like to sit outside and watch the birds as they fly over..wishing i could be that lucky.
Talking endlessly on the phone..no problem.
Laughing until i cry...you know it!
Crying until the hurt goes away..been there.
Being comforted..and feeling warm..feeling loved....
going outside on a rainy day and not worrying about what my hair will look like or how wet my outfit will get...
i love the feeling of it all.
Even the pains.
Because without the pains..
we wouldnt have learned how to cope with certain things.
We wouldnt learn how to get through the hard times and the battles that we withstand every day.
I guess without really knowing how to work a problem out..youd be kind of..
hopeless..lost.
SO..
i guess life is supposed to be like this.
Maybe im supposed to crave more and more adventure..maybe God has a plan for what is supposed to happen next in my life..
even if i cant see the big picture..
i guess its good to know..
He can.


Hailey :)

BigCityDreams MUSIC VIDEO!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Bv_pWyNIW8
pretty ahmazingg :)

heyya

wowwoowowowwow :) darcey here! it has been a LOOONNGGG time :) and i am very much enjoying mixing my letteres and makin up random spellings for a word....like letteres :))) wow you can totally freakin tell that i am OOOBER boredddd :D lolololollololooollolololollllol. there i go mixing up letteres again :D hmph. i really dont knooowwwww what to wrightttt hmmmmm....hailey my dear. i think that,on your two possssibeilities :)) (i totally spelled taht WRONGGGGGah) it would be opition numeroo dos ;) and another thing. YOU WILL NEVER BE FATTT! you sooooooo do NOTOTOTOTOTOTOT (BAHAHAHAMAS![my new {amazing}saying] TOTS!) need to go on ferakin jenny craiggg! gawrsh. summer. that does HAPPEIN to be an AHHH mazeing songg :DD as is Happy by him :)) lol i love his songs. even his...uhh....other stuff {TOATALLY ddifferient} and summer. you will be HARDDCOAREE BBUFFFFFFAH!!!! lolEO.. sorry for yoar extremmeeeeley brootal pain. well i reley got notheing to write anymoresels so im outtie
PeAcE.lOvE.pEnGuInS <3

StUfFeD

Busy.
Busy Busy Busy.
I am so sorry guys..
I havent been on here in quite a while!
So much has been going on i kinda lost track of things.
To be honest..
i havent even thought of writing lately.
I know.
I am a horrible person.
But..
oh contrare my good fellows.
(and lady fellows according to darcey..we had a fight about what to call girl fellows..by the way..we still havent come up with an answer..the fight lasted approx 45 min..no lies.)
I am here..however..
i am at loss for words.
I have no idea what to write about.
All i have to say is..
its Summer..
its beautiful outside..
and i feel..dispicable.
Or horrible..i guess you could say.
And to be more exact..
i feel..empty..or sad..blue even.
Dont you hate when you see couples holding hands..when they are walking RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU?
I do.
Or when you cant stop talking or thinking about one person..just one person..that noone else could take the place of right now..and you talk about that person..ALL THE TIME?
I do.
Oh..and when couples kiss waaay more than they need to..needless to say..
theyre one of.. "those couples".
HAAATE IT.
Especially when your alone the whole time..it just makes you feel..
out of place.
Especially when you wanna be the one holding hands with that one special person.
Or when you wanna be the one who cant stop talking about all the crazy silly and cute things that person does..that you cant seem to stop thinking about..all the time.
And when you wanna be kissing that special someone until..until..like 12:00 pm or later..and you wish you were one of "those couples".
Yeah..
thats how i feel i guess.
I guess im..uum..jealous?
Yeah..jealous of all those people that have found someone..someone special.
I know..
i shouldnt feel this way..
i should be happy ..right?
Right.
But i try..
i try and i fail..
because all i really want is that special someone to be right next to me..
is that really too much to ask?
I mean..is it asking too much if i want someone to put their arm around me?
Is it asking too much if i want someone to adore me and to love me?
Is it asking too much if i want someone to give me flowers on Valentine's Day?
Or to kiss me in the rain?
Or dance without music?
I guess it is.
Because right now..
i feel lonlier than ever..and i dont know why.
I mean..ive got friends..
i have family..
i have Christ..
i have my lovely dogs.
I have come to two possibilities..
1. I am selfish for feeling this way..
2.I like this guy waaaay more than i ever thought i would..
I havent a clue..
If you happen to know..please please tell me..
thanks.
I know there is something wrong here.
Yesterday i ate chips..CHIPS! I HATE CHIPS!
I ate like three bars of fudge..(HUGE BARS)
Chips and dip..fouur miniature hamburgers..pizza before that..cereal..fries..popcorn..icecream..cheese cake (again) and another piece of fundge..
ALL before i went to bed.
I feel..fat.
I think i need Jenny Craig..
seriously..
WOW.
Ive never been so full in my life..
my stomache is hurting..
bad.
My stomache is even making strange noises..ugh..
i think i might puke.


-Hailey - :\

CAUTION: EXTREMELY FUNNY

WOOOW.
THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY.
WHEN YOU WATCH THIS VIDEO..
YOULL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT.

CLICK HERE FOR A ONCE IN A LIFETIME EXPERIENCE.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rP-KFnYg6Hw


-H- :D

i dont have a catchy title.

this is summer.
i thought i'd blog becuz i haven't in a while.
right now i am listening to
Your Biggest Fan by never shout never!
it's an amazing song.
you should listen to it.
wow.
have u ever been in
so much pain
that it literally
makes you want to cry
everytime you move.
well thats how i feel right now.
ok so every monday, wednesday, and friday
i have 6:30 AM weight and agility and speed training.
plus every single day
(started today)
my whole family..which unfortunatly includes me..
is doing this...workout program.
it is called P90X. google it.
seriously do it.
then you would be able to maybe... slightly...
understand how unbearable the pain i am in is.
it is a 52 minute workout.
the people who made the program describe it as...
EXTREME home fitness..
lucky meeeeee.
plus every single day of the week..(minus thursday)
i either have a softball game,
tournament,
or practice.
No wonder thursday is my favorite day.
oh and i have a HUMONGUS knot
on the back of my left shoulder.
and guess wat!
i was dumb enough to let megan (a girl on my softball team)
a beastly girl on my softball team.
well...she tried to work the knot out.
b4 she started shes like..
your gonna scream.
and im like.. no i wont.
anywhoo...as soon as she pushed (SUPER HARD)
on my shoulder.
i hit the dirty softball field
screaming and crying.
yah it sux.
and guess wat.
it didnt help.
yeah.
it sux
at least i will be freakin buff
next year.
schyeahh!
well i need to go home and ice
every single freakin bone in my body!
and...hot shower here i come.
-SUMMER-
-HARD WORK MEANS PAIN-

maybe ill just jump off the cleef!

HEY GUYS!!!!!!! well hailey, I CANT BELIEVE YOU ADMITTED IT TO THE WORLD!! but i had to force it out of you! it was like giving birth! lol thats just how we roll gurlie! lol. wow...im havin a hard timewritin this..............i keep gettin sidethoughted! lol :) ok sooooooo uhh...i totally lost my train of thought uhh...umm....wow guys this is difficult! urggggggggg well i really can NOT write anything! and it makesme feel uselessssss....not really but still lol well i guess ill stop writin now............lol :)

Hot Diggity Dog

False alarm.
I dont have to go to summer school.
YESSS.
I am so stoked about summer now.
I get to sleep in..
and be bored out of my mind!
I really shouldnt be so excited about that..but i am.
Its such a relief to go to bed and have absolutely nothing to worry about when you wake up.
Such as your outfit..
getting up on time
your hair
your teeth
breakfast
homework/projects due
make-up
and bumping into the boy you like while your talking about something totally and completly awkward.
Lets say your talking about him and hes right behind you..
heh..
i am so lucky that has never happened to me before.
Aww man.
I think i just cursed myself.
Anywho.
Today was a pretty awesome day.
We had to make a trip to springfield.
Apparently..we are having family come and visit us.
Family that i didnt even know i had..or even existed.
So we went up to springfield to buy tons and tons of food.
I ended up picking out the desserts.
I mean..whats a family dinner without desserts..right?
I was pretty bored so i ended up talking to darcito most of the day.
And if you dont understand the whole paragraph about abs that she wrote about..well..
that was our conversation.
Abs.
Guys.
Guys with abs.
So help me.
(aaah)
Anyways..
speaking of guys..
I was walking into Sams today in springfield..and i saw a really really attractive guy.
Its summer time..which means its really hot out..right?
Which means that guys need to take their shirts off.
(and i repeat..ahhh)
So this guy was outside pushing a lot of carts up to the front door.
And of course..i was texting darc.
I wasnt paying any attention whatsoever..you know..like in Algebra class?
So you can only imagine what happened.
I walked right into the guy.
Him and all of his muscleness.
There was even sweat on him..which gave him an illuminate glow.
He had abs man..he had abs on his abs.
And his smile?
(aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)
He was beautiful.
ANyways..back to reality.
I looked at him and i was like "OH I AM SOO SORRY"
And he said..in the most angelic voice.."Oh its fine mamm"
Mamm.
MAMM.
I AM A MAMM.
(aaaaaaaaahhhh)
After this little incident..he walked away pushing the carts as if nothing had really happened.
And me?
I stood there.
Not realizing that i had put darcey on hold..for a while.
Sorry darc.
I watched him as he walked away..leaving me speechless.
I couldnt stay there for long..
i had already lost track of my grandmother..who had been standing right next to me before this all had happened.
Now...
she vanished.
Heh.
Usually..
when you think of a grandma..
you think of a slow old lady.
Well..atleast i do.
My grandma..heh..
yeah right.
But that my friends..
is a whole other blog.


Topic of New (new topic)

Have you ever had a dream that was just totally and completley insane?
Something that is so different from what would actually happen?
Well let me tell you something..
so have i.
I just did..
a couple of weeks ago.
It was strange.
It was something that i never thought would happen.
Something that i havent even daydreamed about.
It was like a movie.
It was so weird..
so..real.
Next question.
Have you ever liked someone..and thought it was only a crush.
Something that wouldnt last..
but the more you saw them and listened to them..the more you thought that it was something real..something more.
And lastly..
have you ever fallen.
Fallen so hard for someone..that you didnt want anyone to even help you up.
I have.
I am.
I know how i feel.
I dont know what it is.
But it makes me feel great.
I feel tingly..and happy all the time..
sometimes i dont even know why.
I get butterflies in my stomache..
i get them bad.
I like it.
The mention of his name?
aaah.
I just have to smile..
i cant help it.
Its like..
hes all i can think about..
literally.
Everyone thinks that this cant happen to them.
I know i didnt think so.
But..i guess it did.
I try and try to find an excuse for the way i am acting.
I try to make the thoughts vanish.
And the thoughts didnt vanish.
They turned into a dream..
a wonderful wonderful dream.
And when i woke up that morning..
i thanked God for placing it in my mind.
I still do.
I am going crazy..
I just know i am.
None of this can be right.
Im not in love..
who am i kidding?
I am only sixteen.
I barely even know what love is..
i have seen it in movies.
I feel it between my family members.
If i were to guess what love was..
i think that love is caring for someone other than yourself.
I think love is putting others before yourself.
Loving someone is caring.
Its kindness.
Its an emotion.
It overwhelms our ever being.
Loving someones imperfections.
Kissing in the rain.
Feeling for someones pains and agonies.
Caring enough to help them through it.
To die for that person you love...no matter how painful it is.
Love is a mother holding her newborn child fr the first time.
Love is crying with someone.
Being happy for eachother and giving that person strength and confidence through the good times and the bad.
Love is being there and staying even when you want to leave.
Love is why Christ died in the cross.
Love is the closest thing we have to magic.
Love is never needing to hold anyone elses hand but that special someones.
Love is waking up every morning and wanting to be next to that person every day..for all of eternity.
Love is something you just know and feel in your heart.
Its not something you have to ponder or think about..
it just..there.
And i dont know if thats how i feel.
I dont know how to tell the difference.
I feel so confused.
And for those of you wondering about the dream.
Well..
just know..
it was great.. :)))))))))))

Well thats all i have time for..
Have a restiful night! (yes..i said restiful..in my next blog i will give you the definition)

-H- :)