Life isn't like Indiana Jones

Okay.
SO its summer.
I mean..you get to be relaxed and not worry about school work being turned in late or waking up early.
But as for me..
i have to worry about other things.
Not literally worry..but..well..you know..be really really busy.
I thought id get to have one second to atleast BREATHE.
But..i was wrong.
I have been on the move ever since school let out.
I suppose its good for me.
But i dont get to write you guys as often which is a total bummer.
I dont even get to text darce.
Her cell phone is messed up..well..technically..
the texting is messed up.
I guess shes having TEXTical difficulties! (oh come on guys..you know that was funny)
SO..
yeah..im totally devistated.
Darce is always there when i want to talk about unuseful and irrelevant things.
Now i have to keep the spotenaity to myself.
ANd..as you all may know..
that is a pretty hard thing to do.
Especially for me and darce.
El NEW TOPICA!
You know how in the paragraph above how i was talking and carrying on about how busy my life seems to be right now?
Well..
the other day..i had absolutely NOTHING to do!
It was horrible!
I wrote a little bit more to my book..then journaled a little..and wrote some new poems..
but nothing exciting happened.
I mean..where is the life in life?
Dont get what im saying?
Okay..just hear me out.
Life is supposed to be a journey.
And..to be truthful..it is.
But i guess what i am saying is that..i just thought there was more.
Get this.
Every day..i am always searching for something great..something spectacular..something awww inspiring to happen.
I find myself always wanting to walk around the corner and have something that takes my breath away be right there at that moment.
I am always searching for that something.
The search never ceases.
And i always find myself in an awkward spot..you know..kind of..let down because that amazing thing didnt happen.
Its a horrible feeling.
And i know its coming..but it still gets me everytime.
The other day when i was bored..i wished that i were in a place that was bright and colorful..an undull world where there was in adventure in every corner.
Kind of like Indiana Jones.
You know..how there is always a twist or a new obstacle.
He always has to be on his toes because of all of the things that are out to get him.
Its way over the edge..
its cliff hanging..
its adventurous and dangerous..all at the same time.
Im pretty sure that i would take an adventure like that over watching a tv special about chickens.
Yes..you heard it from me first..i watched a tv special on chickens..on PBS.
Ugh..the agony.
OkAy..well first..i saw this guy that was acting like a chicken..then i saw a guy that detested chickens..a lot..so much..that he took his complaints to the police..talk about rage.
Then a old women was on the show..talking about her pet rooster...fluffy.
At that point..i was pretty much at the point where i was going..are you kidding me?
But sadly..the woman wasnt joking.
She took fluffy VERY seriously.
A little..too seriously.
She even let this chicken watch television.
She said he liked classical music..and she said the chicken told her that.
The chicken went to the grocery store with her too.
Im thinkin PBS needs some new shows...for the love of pete..
Anyway..
like i was saying..
i rather be Indiana Jones.
Id pick that any day rather than watching this chicken show.
But the real point is..
that if you want excitement to take place..
you gotta make it happen.
Things arent ever just gunna happen on their own..
if you want it..you have to make it happen.
And that goes for anything.
Nothing in life will ever just float to you on a fluffy little cloud.
You have to go out there and get what you want.
And me?
Well..
i am tired of waiting.
Waiting (n.)- a certain period of time. a pause or interval.
Yup.
Theres the definition.
Thats me.
Thats what i have been doing.
That is exactly what i dont want to do anymore.
If i want it..i am getting it.
Noone is stoping me..noone is ever standing in my way..noone will ever make me wait again.
Noone will ever make me wait..period.
Because life..life shouldnt be on pause..life cant be..
and life wont go on hold.
When you stop..life still goes on.
Life doesnt wait for you to catch up..
life isnt afraid to leave.
The real question is..
are you ready to catch up.
You cant just sit there and wish your life were different ..
you have to go out there and change it yourself..
otherwise..youll miss your chance.
And i dont wanna miss any chance in life that i get.
When i think if myself..
i think of myself as..as..a girl who likes to be girly.
A Church going, homework slacking,people loving,friendly,happy go lucky, shopaholic..who loves music and coffee and chocolate and her friends and family.
If i could have anything in the world..
id want a camera with endless black and white film..a bunch of canvases with endless amounts of colors..a record player with a bunch of old records..a pianio to write my very own music..and a plane ticket.
I love life.
I love to be out there..you know..in the middle of it all.
I love bright colors and i like my music LOUD.
I like to sit outside and watch the birds as they fly over..wishing i could be that lucky.
Talking endlessly on the phone..no problem.
Laughing until i cry...you know it!
Crying until the hurt goes away..been there.
Being comforted..and feeling warm..feeling loved....
going outside on a rainy day and not worrying about what my hair will look like or how wet my outfit will get...
i love the feeling of it all.
Even the pains.
Because without the pains..
we wouldnt have learned how to cope with certain things.
We wouldnt learn how to get through the hard times and the battles that we withstand every day.
I guess without really knowing how to work a problem out..youd be kind of..
hopeless..lost.
SO..
i guess life is supposed to be like this.
Maybe im supposed to crave more and more adventure..maybe God has a plan for what is supposed to happen next in my life..
even if i cant see the big picture..
i guess its good to know..
He can.


Hailey :)