Hot Diggity Dog

False alarm.
I dont have to go to summer school.
YESSS.
I am so stoked about summer now.
I get to sleep in..
and be bored out of my mind!
I really shouldnt be so excited about that..but i am.
Its such a relief to go to bed and have absolutely nothing to worry about when you wake up.
Such as your outfit..
getting up on time
your hair
your teeth
breakfast
homework/projects due
make-up
and bumping into the boy you like while your talking about something totally and completly awkward.
Lets say your talking about him and hes right behind you..
heh..
i am so lucky that has never happened to me before.
Aww man.
I think i just cursed myself.
Anywho.
Today was a pretty awesome day.
We had to make a trip to springfield.
Apparently..we are having family come and visit us.
Family that i didnt even know i had..or even existed.
So we went up to springfield to buy tons and tons of food.
I ended up picking out the desserts.
I mean..whats a family dinner without desserts..right?
I was pretty bored so i ended up talking to darcito most of the day.
And if you dont understand the whole paragraph about abs that she wrote about..well..
that was our conversation.
Abs.
Guys.
Guys with abs.
So help me.
(aaah)
Anyways..
speaking of guys..
I was walking into Sams today in springfield..and i saw a really really attractive guy.
Its summer time..which means its really hot out..right?
Which means that guys need to take their shirts off.
(and i repeat..ahhh)
So this guy was outside pushing a lot of carts up to the front door.
And of course..i was texting darc.
I wasnt paying any attention whatsoever..you know..like in Algebra class?
So you can only imagine what happened.
I walked right into the guy.
Him and all of his muscleness.
There was even sweat on him..which gave him an illuminate glow.
He had abs man..he had abs on his abs.
And his smile?
(aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah)
He was beautiful.
ANyways..back to reality.
I looked at him and i was like "OH I AM SOO SORRY"
And he said..in the most angelic voice.."Oh its fine mamm"
Mamm.
MAMM.
I AM A MAMM.
(aaaaaaaaahhhh)
After this little incident..he walked away pushing the carts as if nothing had really happened.
And me?
I stood there.
Not realizing that i had put darcey on hold..for a while.
Sorry darc.
I watched him as he walked away..leaving me speechless.
I couldnt stay there for long..
i had already lost track of my grandmother..who had been standing right next to me before this all had happened.
Now...
she vanished.
Heh.
Usually..
when you think of a grandma..
you think of a slow old lady.
Well..atleast i do.
My grandma..heh..
yeah right.
But that my friends..
is a whole other blog.


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Have you ever had a dream that was just totally and completley insane?
Something that is so different from what would actually happen?
Well let me tell you something..
so have i.
I just did..
a couple of weeks ago.
It was strange.
It was something that i never thought would happen.
Something that i havent even daydreamed about.
It was like a movie.
It was so weird..
so..real.
Next question.
Have you ever liked someone..and thought it was only a crush.
Something that wouldnt last..
but the more you saw them and listened to them..the more you thought that it was something real..something more.
And lastly..
have you ever fallen.
Fallen so hard for someone..that you didnt want anyone to even help you up.
I have.
I am.
I know how i feel.
I dont know what it is.
But it makes me feel great.
I feel tingly..and happy all the time..
sometimes i dont even know why.
I get butterflies in my stomache..
i get them bad.
I like it.
The mention of his name?
aaah.
I just have to smile..
i cant help it.
Its like..
hes all i can think about..
literally.
Everyone thinks that this cant happen to them.
I know i didnt think so.
But..i guess it did.
I try and try to find an excuse for the way i am acting.
I try to make the thoughts vanish.
And the thoughts didnt vanish.
They turned into a dream..
a wonderful wonderful dream.
And when i woke up that morning..
i thanked God for placing it in my mind.
I still do.
I am going crazy..
I just know i am.
None of this can be right.
Im not in love..
who am i kidding?
I am only sixteen.
I barely even know what love is..
i have seen it in movies.
I feel it between my family members.
If i were to guess what love was..
i think that love is caring for someone other than yourself.
I think love is putting others before yourself.
Loving someone is caring.
Its kindness.
Its an emotion.
It overwhelms our ever being.
Loving someones imperfections.
Kissing in the rain.
Feeling for someones pains and agonies.
Caring enough to help them through it.
To die for that person you love...no matter how painful it is.
Love is a mother holding her newborn child fr the first time.
Love is crying with someone.
Being happy for eachother and giving that person strength and confidence through the good times and the bad.
Love is being there and staying even when you want to leave.
Love is why Christ died in the cross.
Love is the closest thing we have to magic.
Love is never needing to hold anyone elses hand but that special someones.
Love is waking up every morning and wanting to be next to that person every day..for all of eternity.
Love is something you just know and feel in your heart.
Its not something you have to ponder or think about..
it just..there.
And i dont know if thats how i feel.
I dont know how to tell the difference.
I feel so confused.
And for those of you wondering about the dream.
Well..
just know..
it was great.. :)))))))))))

Well thats all i have time for..
Have a restiful night! (yes..i said restiful..in my next blog i will give you the definition)

-H- :)