Thats how you knoooooooooooooow..

I want someone.
I want someone who actually cares.
I want someone who loves me as much as i love them.
I want a guy that has the ability to make me believe there are really happy endings and that fairytales really do come true.
But before a girl can get to that guy.
The guy that you totally and completley have been yerning for you whole entire life..
there is one very important thing that all us girls must do.
Wait.
I know it can be really tough..
the truth is..its tough on all of us.
But heres the truth..
if love wasnt rough..it wouldnt be fun.
If all us girls just went out and automatically found the right guy with absolutley everything that we ever wanted in a guy..
life would be boring.
Lets face it..
Life would be..
muy aburrido.
And i am not just saying that because i have taken spanish.
Just think of all the things that we would miss out on.
Most importantly..
the fun.
The fun of the wait.
Waking up early just to do your hair.
Experimenting with make-up.
Wearing clothes you never thought youd get caught dead wearing.
Trying to talk to him for the very first time..and making a complete fool out of yourself in the process.
And dont forget..when you had one of the worst days ever and then that special someone talks to you..and makes that day the best day in your life.
Just saying his name makes you smile..it makes your whole world glow.
And feeling on top of the world and like your about to puke at the same time.
Its a great feeling.
And you dont ever want it to stop.
But sometimes it does.
You may find out he cheated on you.
He may like someone else and you saw them kissing at a movie that you went to by yourself.
You may like him..but he only likes you as a friend.
Things like this break our hearts.
Things like this get us down..and they get us down a lot easier than we ever suspected.
Things like this make us stronger.
I believe that our lives are planned.
Whether we know it or not..our life has a big picture.
A picture that only God can see.
The way i see it..He has a plan for our lives.
All we seem to see is the small picture.
Like who we are gunna see at school or what we are gunna eat for supper.
But there is something bigger in store for each of us.
And i know..someday my prince will come.
So..i guess my point is..
i like fairytales.
Life isnt all fun.
Theres a lot of suffering, and hurt, and heartache..
but fairytales are little reminders that there is a place out there where things are simple.
Things are great.
Happiness is rich.
Life is pure.
And i like it.
I know sometimes i get fed up.
I get fed up of hearing the same old things..the same old lies.
But i realize that sometimes i get in this slump where i only think about myself or i only think about boys.
But life is a whole bunch of things.
Its hard..but its great.
Its good for us to have good times and bad because it makes each and every one of us stronger.
And when we overcome that obstacle that has been in our way for so long..
It feels fantastic.
It gives us the strength to go on.
And i like believing that there is something better for us out there than what we already have.
It feels good knowing that there is a path ahead of me that God can help me follow.
I like this.
I like this...a lot.
I have never been in love..
but i want it.
I want that feeling.
And i realized that i dont need a guy to achieve that feeling.
I have my family and i have my friends.
Love is everywhere..all you have to do is....feel it.
New cipot. (topic backwards)
So I am feeling good..great actually.
We bought horses.
I am so excited to ride.
We have had a couple of horses before but they were old.
I love them.
I havent had riding lessons before.
My grandparents said i dont need them.
Somehow i have that automatic thing with the horses.
I dont know..somehow we just ..click.
They are beautiful.
They are so fast and so careful.
They get faster and more and more bold with every stride.
Its amazing how powerful they can be.
I need a name for our horse.
I think i am gunna name him Fitzwilliam.
I know what your thinking..poor horse.
Truthfully..i got the name from one of my favorite movies Pride and Prejudice.
The loverboy..has the name Darcy..so i wanna call the horse Fitzwilliam Darcy.
Everyone thinks its a little weird because i have a friend named darcey.
heh.
That is a little strange.
She is a little strange but i like it.
It just..clicks ya know?
I have a question for yall..(since when have i gone all western?)
Have you ever just wanted to dance?
Not just any kind of dance but..you know..really dance.
Thats what i feel like doing right now..in this very moment.
I wanna dance with no music.
I wanna go outside and dance as i watch the sunset.
I wanna be free.
Free from all of the stress..
the stress of everything.
I want the weight off of my shoulders.
And most of all..
I want to just..breathe.
I know i sound crazy..
but its how i feel.
I cant help it..
i dont wanna try.
I like this feeling.
Its so comforting..
P.S..i am sorry about the title..that song has been stuck in my head all day..

Hailey;)